Paranoid

I walked in the street,
In front of a billion, billion people.
They stare at me at an unusual way,
I don't know what to do.

I am a paranoid, I don't feel love there,
I see hate, I see fear, I see.
Tears when I open my eyes,
Tear when I close my eyes.

I am a paranoid, I see fear,
My heart races like a train.
My wet skins gives me chills,
Red colored forehead hit me then,
Oh a billion, people in front of me.

I am a paranoid, and I am afraid,
I am afraid, I lost my talents.
Afraid of what the world will think of me,
What they treat me, my attitude and behaviour.
What the world will make of me.

I am a paranoid and I want to live,
I don't want to live on this world of fear,
I want to live my talents forever.
I deserve to live with love and peace,
I can't negotiate with the world of money,
I can't carry my talents to the black hole of fear.

Yes I need to live,
I must live,
I should live,
I ought to live,
I will live, will a normal life.

Hello fear,
Can you please go behind my talents and live ?
Because I am a paranoid !!